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least favorite

Published by Zea

Have you experienced being left out or the least favorite in a group? I often experience it. The feeling of being unwanted, unloved, and not the favorite person makes me feel distant and alone. Sometimes I think I’m just sensitive and emotional.  But why do I have to feel those specific emotions? Why do I have to be in a group that doesn’t like to be with me? Either way, it’s just a feeling and thought that kept running through my head for a couple of days, then stopped, then ran again, and the cycle repeated. I know it’s really hard to communicate online, especially as an empathetic observer. How can I observe in chat? Hard to tell, and the interpretation will depend on how it is read and understood by a reader like me. So, as much as possible, I’m trying to slow down and understand those who thought from different angles. But reading different books or listening to advice from different experienced people taught me that the opinions of others about me shouldn’t …

another year of exciting journey

Published by Zea

Wow, time flies! My family and I just welcomed the new year, and now the first quarter is almost over. Three months have passed, while I wonder how I will change my hobbies and system to change my life, but it’s so fast, like a blink—crazy, right? This made me realize how important it is to enjoy every moment. I feel like I only know the surface level of life, not entirely every wave that comes with it. Right now, I’m exactly where I was in my youngest years. Eating junk foods, going to the mall, window shopping, buying stuff I don’t need, eating unhealthy foods, and not paying attention to life is my current everyday flow. So I realized I need to spend time loving and taking care of myself and my loved ones, doing what makes me happy, and pursuing the hobbies and career I enjoy. Like starting that business I always dreamed of, but hey, I need MONEY for that. But dear, there’s no such thing as perfect timing. It’s now or …

setbacks to new beginnings

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The start of the year didn’t go as I had hoped. Life has a way of reminding us that change is the only constant, and part of that reality was facing an unexpected challenge—I got laid off. It was a tough moment, but I believed every obstacle serves a purpose, even if we don’t see it immediately. While January brought bad news, I refused to let it define my year. I reminded myself that setbacks aren’t the enemy but redirections toward something better. And just before February ended, I received some incredible news—a new job offer! This experience has reinforced my faith that everything happens for a reason. Challenges may shake us, but they also pave the way for new opportunities. Here’s to moving forward, embracing change, and trusting the journey ahead!

hello, 2025 ✨

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Every New Year, I love starting fresh by setting goals, creating systems, and choosing a theme to guide me. For 2025, I’ve decided to call it my “Self-Improvement Year.” This isn’t about perfection-it’s about progress. I want to focus on improving every part of myself, step by step. Whether it’s my health, habits, or mindset, this year is about becoming a better version of myself. Of course, everything depends on how consistent I can be. It won’t always be easy, but I’m ready to try, learn, and grow. Here’s to 2025-a year of transformation and growth. The Journey Back to Balance There was a time when I felt more in tune with my body, not too slim or heavy, just a version of myself that felt right. Lately, though, I’ve been longing to return to that balance. It’s not just about appearance; it’s about feeling good in my skin again. Body shaming has been a constant sting, coming from places I didn’t expect and sometimes from strangers. It’s exhausting. I’ve carried those words with me, but …